How Do My Gods Love Me? Let Me Count the Ways.

In my post on what kind of blogger/theologian/future cult leader I want to be, I talked about how one of my goals is to inspire my readers to play “a little more smoochy schmoo” with their gods—“a little more, ‘How do I love thee?’”

It occurred to me today that perhaps I should share a little of my own smoochy schmoo to lighten things up after my last few posts have been a little on the, let’s say, shady side.

Rather than doing, “How do I love thee,” I do “How do my gods love me?” Every Sunday I sit down and write out my gratitude to the big 13 of my gods. It’s a way for me to count out and record everything my gods have individually done for me that week and over my lifetime—or to give it a good effort anyway. Here’s an example from last week:

  • Hera: Thank you for your part in helping me get over my flu and back on my feet to start trying to get back into my work groove. Thank you for granting me some of your power and confidence to get out there and run even though it can be scary sometimes. Thank you for being so kind and so funny. Thank you for being so beautiful and for lightening up my day. Thank you for loving me so much and letting me love you.
  • Zeus: Thank you for being the strong father. Thank you for always being there, but not coming so close as to frighten me. Thank you for the rain. We need the rain so much. Thank you for your strength. Thank you for quietly watching over me. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Demeter: Thank you for being the strong mother. Thank you for agriculture and all the beautiful things of the earth we have to eat because of it. Thank you for agriculture because it led to civilization. Thank you for continuing to love me at the depth you did when first I came to our family of gods. Thank you for being so beautiful. Thank you for mothering Persephone and raising her in beauty and light. Thank you for loving me so much and letting me love you.
  • Poseidon: Thank you for helping me through this big change in my life. Thank you for helping keep me steady and calm and progressing consistently. Thank you for horses—you and Demeter. I’m not sure exactly which one. I know that’s random, but thank you. Thank you for being close, but not so close as to frighten me. Thank you for being the earth-shaker, but also being kind. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Hestia: Thank you that my home is a peaceful one. Thank you that my home is warm and full of love. Thank you for all the light in my home and that I had this extra lamp to work with my book under. Bad sentence, but I know you love me anyway. Thank you that I am warm and safe and things are almost always peaceful. Thank you for this roof over my head. Thank you for my bed and my fuzzy blankets. Thank you that our pantry is always full and that we always have the money for groceries—that we never have to worry about food. You do so much and you do it quietly, I feel at a loss. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Hephaistos: Thank you for being an inspiration in so many ways. Thank you for your righteousness—for showing me how to be righteous without being a pain in the ass about it. Thank you for inspiring a newfound work ethic in me. Thank you for your talent. Thank you for all the work you have done so that we may have the machinery we have, such as this computer I am writing on now. Thank you for all that you have done in helping design prostheses for people who need them. Thank you for being steady and consistent and inspiring that in me. Thank you for being so close in such a good and quiet way. I feel it even though we don’t often talk. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Artemis: Thank you for inspiring my athleticism and for getting me back out on the road again. I often give Hermes all the credit for that, but I think of your lean legs and you running through the moonlit forest on the hunt, and I know you are there inspiring me also. Thank you for being so beautiful. Thank you for being you—so free and athletic. I can’t thank you enough for bringing my doggies home to me when they ran away. I will never be able to thank you enough. Prayer answered on the spot. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Apollon: Big, big thanks this week for getting me through my flu so quickly and that it didn’t hang on for as long as it could have. Thank you that I have health insurance. Thank you that I can afford to go to the ER. Thank you that the doctors and nurses were so kind. Thank you that it didn’t hurt too much when the medic put in my IV. Thank you that I have a good, strong heart. Thank you that the triage nurse gave me such a kind compliment. Thank you that the pain didn’t kill me. Stop laughing. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Athena: Thank you for my studies and for helping me know what to study. I know I have been away from it for some time, but it feels good to be back. Thank you for my degree as it lends legitimacy to my status as a future cult leader. Thank you for understanding when I was a brat about getting my sociology degree. Thank you for being so loving and fun. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Hermes: I thank you for nothing. You’re useless. Pffft.
  • Aphrodite: Thank you for being so understanding with me when I have blamed you for things that weren’t your fault. I know I say that every week, but it is SO important and so possible you could have been deeply offended by it, but you weren’t. You were and are kind and understanding. Your power. Your incredible beauty. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Ares: Thank you for your demeanor. You are so courageous and stalwart. Thank you for inspiring my courage when I need it to get out running or to get into writing or whenever I need it. Thank you for protecting me always. I never have a doubt you are there as a strong, protective, fierce-when-necessary presence. Thank you for being so concerned about me. Thank you for helping me learn how to fight, both internally and externally. Thank you for loving me so much and for letting me love you.
  • Dionysos: Thank you for your part in helping me improve my mental health. Thank you for your help in keeping the nightmares away. I know that is you. Thank you for being so understanding when I was blaming you for things that weren’t your fault. Thank you for your quiet attitude toward me. Your gentleness is so good—what most people would think uncharacteristic, but so good to me. Thank you for all the million things you do behind the scenes mentally of which I am unaware. Please help make me aware. Thank you for your strength. Thank you for loving me so much and letting me love you.

OK, so… I admit that all was heavily edited. Our relationships with our gods or god get awfully personal sometimes, which is good, but not often fit for public consumption. You get the idea though. My gods love me an awful lot and I’m sure your gods or god love you just as much.

How do you play smoochy schmoo with your deities/deity? How many ways do they love you? Can you count them? I know I sure can’t.

-M.

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About M. Ashley

Essayist and poet, my work has been rejected by some of the finest journals in America. Fortunately, it also gets accepted from time to time and has appeared in equally fine journals such as Word Riot, Inlandia, Brew City Magazine, and SageWoman among others.. In 2002, I was awarded the Academy of American Poets Prize for Vanderbilt University. For no good reason, I possess an unnecessarily dark humor which is why being third generation California Inland Empirian delights me so. My gods are weird. I once received $350 for writing a smartassed essay on “why the wise use of water is important in my daily life”. I am undoubtedly the Greek god Hermes’ special snowflake. I’m pretty sure I got into college via a series of fortuitous clerical errors. When I had to grow up and get a real job, I decided against it and stayed a writer. I have worked many odd—and I mean odd—jobs to support my habit: Commercial writer for country music hopefuls, resume massager, WalMart fitting room attendant and switchboard operator, telephone psychic.
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